Last night I am doing laundry and I decided to turn the TV to HBO so I can watch my new favorite show, Hung. If you haven’t seen this show, the premise is that main character, Ray is a man whore. He is pimped out by this lady and they have clientele. It is actually a pretty good show that has a lot of moments that make you go…OMG. If you do watch the show and did not see last night’s episode, you might want to see it first before reading this.
Anyway, during his travels, Ray, falls for this woman named Jemma and he thinks she might be the one for him. Of course, every time he sees her, she pays him after the night is over. So, just when he takes her out for real, Ray tells Jemma that she does not have to pay anymore because this is real. So they go out and at the end of the night, he is thinking about how different the sex was and he might be falling in love again. He wakes up in the morning to find a wad of money on the pillow.
Which brings us to last nights episode. Jemma calls him and breaks it off. He finds this hard to believe and finds a way to show her that he is serious. He writes this letter and brings it to her. Ray tells her to read the letter because it is from his heart. She goes…”Fuck your heart”. I think my jaw dropped just as much as his. I kinda felt his pain. He was just standing there asking how did she just change overnight.
Ray is devastated and gets drunk. His pimp, Tanya, visits him and tells him that Jemma did this on purpose. She wanted to break some one’s heart in the same way her’s had been broken. Not only did she want to break his heart she wanted to do it with no explanation and to top it off, do it to a man that was as caring as she was. She told Tonya that Ray made her happy too. In end…she paid Tanya 2 thousand dollars. Again, I am shocked. I automatically asked, How much is a broken heart worth?
Clearly this just a show, but this makes me think about all the things that have happened to me and the people around me. As I stated, everyone is going through something. When it comes down to it, we know when we break some one’s heart. We all know how shitty it is. But as I said before, being vindictive is not the answer. I wrote a blog weeks ago about The Scourge, which is a man scorn. I never though about a woman scorn in the same aspect as man scorn.
See, when I think about a woman scorn I think about Waiting to Exhale. When Bernadine burns her husband’s car with the clothes inside is the perfect image of a woman scorn. I would not have thought about a woman who could use another man and then shatter his heart. I would just normally assume that most women understand love, but as I have come to realize…I take too many things at face value. I forget that women can be ruthless and I need to be very careful who I trust.
Which brings me back to my question about the value of a broken heart. I am not so sure I would have taken that money (then again, I wouldn’t be a man whore). The money seemed so dirty at that point. It made me realize about how people tend to think money can solve everything. I have seen women become so vindictive, in terms of a divorce, in which taking money from the man becomes much more important than mending the broken heart they have. In which case, does half a man’s possessions become that value of that broken heart?
I very much believe that revenge and vindictiveness will very much make a person’s heart turn to ice. It can take the person with the biggest heart and shrink it. So what is the value of a broken heart? I think that the value can never be determined. But I will say that breaking some one’s heart may cost you your own heart.